I'm Nobody

 

A cold that pretend to be passionate,

A chain that pretend to be free, 

What did you end up being?

A fireworks that burnt magnificently.

Keep chasing, 

Whose glory is not accompanied by tears?

I'm Nobody

Do No Harm

 

8 April 2021

I burn my hand, scalded with hot oil. 

That day I lost my body image. 

8 May 2021

I crash my car, getting summon.

That day I lost my confident. 

8 June 2021

I resign from work, To stressfull. 

That day I lost my Job. 

8 July 2021

I hurt my nephew, It was accident.

That day I lost my heart. 

And I learn that I would prefer getting hurt

thousand times rather than hurting people. 

Ya Allah, please guide me, 

protect me, and show me mercy. 

May Allah ease. 

Let It Go

Maybe the times has comes

For me to let go of the past

that have chain me

in a memories 

that killing my soul slowly

Maybe the times has comes

For me to walk away

From all the thing

That has been eating at me slowly

Maybe the times has comes

For sun to shines again

To rejuvenate my soul

And heal what left of my broken heart

Relevation

 Something bad happen to me,

And i realise, all this time, 

I have been doing life wrong,

I see life in new light and new perspectives, 

And i cannot unseen it,

And continue being the old me. 

I'm going thru metamorphosis,

I'm changing,

Hopefully for the better, 

And happier me. 

InshaAllah. 

May Allah ease

3 Years Later

If anybody ask, I will tell them,
Im no longer the same person as before..
My face might look the same,
But deep down, after 3 years, im not the same person anymore...

But today, more than ever,
Im glad, because this blog remind me,
Who i use to be, who I see myself in the future..

I feel melancholy,
But I also feel more confident,
As im reminded who im,
And what i have archieved..

Thanks Allah for everything, and one
Day when I see this, i hope i smile..
😁

They said you should not think too much..

Because the past can't be change,

Because the future is still unknown,

The present is your priority.

But somehow I'm stuck,

In between unaccomplished past,

And uncertain future,

I'm drowning.

I have started to wonder,

What if my past that shaped my future,

What if my future is not that of my choosing,

What if I'm given the choices again,

Will I still choose the same thing.

Maybe, it's time to move on,

Or maybe it's time to let go,

As the present get more complicated,

Until I can't no longer, go on.

Aku mahu pulang

It's been 2 years since I left..
I change a lot, I grew up a lot..
But then I find myself farther away from 'Him'..
How I had stray away without realising it.

Lately, I had been feeling down, feeling old
And unaccomplished..
How I long to go back home..
How each and every cell in me screaming
I wanna go back..

Aku Mahu pulang..
Ke suatu tempat yang aku rindukan,
Aku Mahu kembali..
Ke jalan yang aku tinggalkan,
Aku Mahu melewati..
Masaku yang telah pergi,
Kerana yang aku rindukan,
Ternyata hanya sebuah kenangan..