Lazy Day

mmmm...

Today, i dont feel like doing anything...
Dont feel like writing anything...

Somehow, i wanted to write this...
So that when i feeling like wanted to give up...

I can see this post..
and remember how i decided to started..

And i wanted to keep this feeling inside me...
The feeling of gratefulness..
Feeling bless and happy..

Thank you Allah...
Maybe one day....

PsychO

I learn about psychiatric...
I have seen psychiatric patient...
I have been with them..
I have work for them..

But now, I'm more closer to them than ever,
Coz maybe, just maybe...
I will become psychiatric patient myself...

Who knows?
Coz life is like that..
You'll not be here forever..
nor are they...

So, why judge??
Before the Day itself

The day Allah judge all of us..
The day that none will be misjudge...

None of us is superior to one another...
None of us is inferior to one another...
Coz in Allah eye,
What matter is TAQWA...

And that what I need to strive for..
Whether being a psycho or not..
: )

Change of Heart?

Starting a new job..
Moving into a new house..
Living in a new place..
Working in a new department. .
Being in new environment. ..

A lot of thing had change in my life..
Some are thing that I really wants. .
Other just change that I really need
Or maybe something that I just cannot avoid..

Whatever it is. . The only change that really affected me...
Really scares the hell out of me..
Really bothers me..
Making people around me feel shocked.

It the kind of change that suddenly occurs..
Change from within me..
Changes from my heart..
Complete change of myself. .
Transforming my identity. .

Where is that girl?
That I always depend on..
That I always adores..
That I'm most confidence with..
Where's the old me?

Maybe this is the price I had to pay...
For making drastic decision..
On a wimp..
Without really thinking through..

But this time. . I'm enduring it..
Trying to adapt.. conserved.. and deal with changes..

I determined to become stronger..
If I cannot fight the changes...
If I cannot stop it..
If I find no ways to conserve the old me..

Then.. the time have come..for me to change accordingly... adapt..
Work hard.. pray harder..
Be someone better...
Inshaaallah. .. may Allah ease..

Freedom

Apa ertinya bebas?
Apa itu ketenangan?
Apa itu bahagia?
Apa ukurannya?

Dulu kau bilang, kau tidak percaya..
Bila mereka bilang hidup adalah untuk mengesakan Allah..
Kerna ucapannya cuma dibibir doang..
Ngakk dipraktikkan melalui perbuatan...

Justru kau menilai mereka?

Tapi kini, sesudahnya kau mulai berubah...
Mulai seperti mereka...
Bagaimana itu?
Sudahnya apa maksud hidupmu?
Berpoya-poya tanpa kesudahan...
Lalu kau tertanya lagi...

Apa ertinya bebas?
Apa itu ketenangan?
Apa itu bahagia?
Apa ukurannya?

Sampai bila baru kau bisa mengerti..
Kalau semuanya datang dari hati..
Bahagia? Ketenangan? Kebebasan?

Jawapnya :

 الَّذِيْنَ ءَامَنُوْا وَتَطْمَئِنُّ قُلُوْبُـهُمْ بِذِكْرِ اللهِ أَلا بِذِكْرِ اللهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوْبُ

28. (yaitu) orang-orang yang beriman dan hati mereka manjadi tenteram dengan mengingat Allah. Ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingati Allah-lah hati menjadi tenteram. (Ar- Ra'd)

Dengan mengingati Allah SWT, hati menjadi tenang....
Jiwa bebas dari belenggu duniawi...
Justru kebahagian dapat dicapai....

Makanya, ukurlah ketenangan, kebebasan dan kebahagiaanmu...
Dengan sebanyak mana kau mengingati Allah SWT...
Penciptamu...

Operation Wedding

So.. 1 already married. ..

Another 2 more 2 go b4 2 years time...

After that, another 1...

Then, it'll be my turn...

Another 2 n a 1/2 years b4 I am gonna settle down..

Hopefully will be able to gain exp n money..

Back to penang in 2 year time..

Settle thing down for once and all...

Will I make it?

2 year is really a long time..

Will I really survived through this..

I dont know. ..

But for now.. let stick to the plan..

Work hard. ..

Pray hard..

Be happy with whatever ALLAH plan for me..

So.. let start the operation. . 

For the sake of 2 years time..

Being Human? Human Being ?

30 March 2002

I had experienced the pain...
I had been there...
Seeing all those thing...
feeling it crawling underneath my skin...
The terrible scents of death...

And I had been thinking
What if ?
What if i'm given another chances?
Second chances to fix everything?

So, I work hard...
Trying, and struggling..
Waiting for the second chances...

4 August 2013

It happen again...
Experiencing the same thing all over again..
This is my second chances, to fix everything..
But still I do nothing..

Maybe i did not work hard enough..
Maybe i did not try..
Or maybe i'm just plain weak..

Seeing them die... Both the people i love..
Both the people i care about...
Both in the same way..

It frustrating, isn't it?
Knowing but still can do nothing?

Maybe this second chances..
Is my second chances to fail..
And my second chances to grieve..

Or it is simply a friendly reminder..
That we are just human..
And that is what we are..

New Girl to The City

LIFE VS LIVE

Sejak dua menjak ini, ku mencari fungsi kewujudan
Dalam persekitaran yang penuh kejumudan
Terperangkap dalam jasad, ku keliru
Mujur ada kau si peneutralisasi pilu

Namun aku tetap murung, berkurung
Tubuh makin susut, menunggu tarikh luput
Komplikasi di halaman rusuk kiri
Makin sukar nak bernafas, nak bergerak, nak berdiri

Sumber : http://www.liriklagumuzika.com/2012/06/lirik-lagu-teman-pengganti-black-ft.html#ixzz2Vdy3I1Md