Change of Heart?

Starting a new job..
Moving into a new house..
Living in a new place..
Working in a new department. .
Being in new environment. ..

A lot of thing had change in my life..
Some are thing that I really wants. .
Other just change that I really need
Or maybe something that I just cannot avoid..

Whatever it is. . The only change that really affected me...
Really scares the hell out of me..
Really bothers me..
Making people around me feel shocked.

It the kind of change that suddenly occurs..
Change from within me..
Changes from my heart..
Complete change of myself. .
Transforming my identity. .

Where is that girl?
That I always depend on..
That I always adores..
That I'm most confidence with..
Where's the old me?

Maybe this is the price I had to pay...
For making drastic decision..
On a wimp..
Without really thinking through..

But this time. . I'm enduring it..
Trying to adapt.. conserved.. and deal with changes..

I determined to become stronger..
If I cannot fight the changes...
If I cannot stop it..
If I find no ways to conserve the old me..

Then.. the time have come..for me to change accordingly... adapt..
Work hard.. pray harder..
Be someone better...
Inshaaallah. .. may Allah ease..