selfless

11 April 2012...

this date means nothing... but somehow i realised something important that day...

How weak my heart is...
How stupid i had been...
How wrong my life is...

When one question keep appearing in my mind...
It is enough?? has I had enough? are all this enough for me?

The answer is...

I loss... but to whom?
To my feeling?
To the feeling of selfishness...

It happens before...
that day... when each and everyones of us trapped in the elevator...
When each of us feeling nervous and miserable..
when each of us want to get out from that elevator as soon as possible..

But, that time isn't the same..
It about safety.. it about life.. it about sin...

This time is something bigger..
Is it about anger? fear?
Or so i think....

Only in the end...
i realised...
that this is a reminder...
about how loving is important...
loving other people as much as your own self...
SELFLESSLY...

and.. I fail miserably...
People of Acheh...
I'm sorry that when you're in trouble...
the only thing that i care about is my safety...
People of Malaysia..
I'm sorry that when earthquake happens...
the only thing i care about is my family...

“Tidaklah seseorang diantara kalian dikatakan beriman, hingga dia mencintai sesuatu bagi saudaranya sebagaimana dia mencintai sesuatu bagi dirinya sendiri.”

Ya, ALLAH...
betapa hambaMu ini tertanya-tanya...
dimanakah tahap iman aku kala ini...
kala aku membelakangkan saudara-saudara ku sendiri...

Ya Allah...
Betapa aku berharap agar..
aku juga seperti itu...
agar aku bisa mencintai saudara-saudaraku...
sebagaimana aku mencintai diriku sendiri...

~SELFLESS~