Fuck fuck fuck

HorroR

Aku suka tgk cerita dekat tv...
cerita boleh mghiburkan hati, boleh menghilangkan kebosanan, boleh juga mengajar benda baru...

Tapi lately banyak cerita2 merepek dengan makhluk2 pelik yg menyeramkan...
Seram giler bila tgk cerita2 mcm tu....

Tapi I didn't realised, ada yg lebih menyeramkan dalam hidup ni...
Apa yg lebih menyeramkan adalah AKU!!

Aku semakin menyeramkan, membencikan dan memeluatkan...
I'm so sick n tired of being me... I hate enduring all this and going on with my life...
But I still going on , sacrificing the thing that I love sooo much...

I feel empty and depress, I feel alone and abandoned....
But the thing is I'm empty.. heartless, painless, and feelingless...
and that is scary...

It coming again, hunting me... I;m afraid that i'm no longer strong,
No longer have the energy to fight..
I'm afraid of falling again into it hand.....

All 5 years of suffering and traumatised,
And how hard i work to get out of it...

Now, I'm all alone,
fighting again my worse enemy,
Abandoning people i love,
For the reason that i dont know,
For the sake of serenity and peace,
that i never find....

Living a wasted life...
My life is scariest of all movies i ever watch...
A complete Horror!!

And I still have nobody to turn to..
or to talk to...
how stupid.... how this bullshit...
Is a life of mine...