KSA

 When I first get into nursing program I use to joke with my friends that after graduation we will travel to KSA and make so much money and become rich, but then life happen, we all go out separate ways and go through our life differently than what we use to imagine.

I was a long time ago, and after all up and down I have been a nurse for 12 years, so much pain and tears, but also so much happiness and satisfaction. Never had  I imagine that one days I will come to KSA.

We plan, and Allah plan, and Allah is the best of planner. So here I'm in Jeddah KSA reliving my dream long time ago. Allah have given me the chance to travel, learn, earn money, but most importantly to prays and be closer to him. And fot that I will be forever grateful. 

My Allah bless us with the best in this world and the hereafter 😁

I'm Nobody

 

A cold that pretend to be passionate,

A chain that pretend to be free, 

What did you end up being?

A fireworks that burnt magnificently.

Keep chasing, 

Whose glory is not accompanied by tears?

I'm Nobody

Do No Harm

 

8 April 2021

I burn my hand, scalded with hot oil. 

That day I lost my body image. 

8 May 2021

I crash my car, getting summon.

That day I lost my confident. 

8 June 2021

I resign from work, To stressfull. 

That day I lost my Job. 

8 July 2021

I hurt my nephew, It was accident.

That day I lost my heart. 

And I learn that I would prefer getting hurt

thousand times rather than hurting people. 

Ya Allah, please guide me, 

protect me, and show me mercy. 

May Allah ease. 

Let It Go

Maybe the times has comes

For me to let go of the past

that have chain me

in a memories 

that killing my soul slowly

Maybe the times has comes

For me to walk away

From all the thing

That has been eating at me slowly

Maybe the times has comes

For sun to shines again

To rejuvenate my soul

And heal what left of my broken heart

Relevation

 Something bad happen to me,

And i realise, all this time, 

I have been doing life wrong,

I see life in new light and new perspectives, 

And i cannot unseen it,

And continue being the old me. 

I'm going thru metamorphosis,

I'm changing,

Hopefully for the better, 

And happier me. 

InshaAllah. 

May Allah ease

3 Years Later

If anybody ask, I will tell them,
Im no longer the same person as before..
My face might look the same,
But deep down, after 3 years, im not the same person anymore...

But today, more than ever,
Im glad, because this blog remind me,
Who i use to be, who I see myself in the future..

I feel melancholy,
But I also feel more confident,
As im reminded who im,
And what i have archieved..

Thanks Allah for everything, and one
Day when I see this, i hope i smile..
😁

They said you should not think too much..

Because the past can't be change,

Because the future is still unknown,

The present is your priority.

But somehow I'm stuck,

In between unaccomplished past,

And uncertain future,

I'm drowning.

I have started to wonder,

What if my past that shaped my future,

What if my future is not that of my choosing,

What if I'm given the choices again,

Will I still choose the same thing.

Maybe, it's time to move on,

Or maybe it's time to let go,

As the present get more complicated,

Until I can't no longer, go on.